History repeats itself. That is a fact. I think only because there are not nearly as many outcomes to life as we think there are. Probably only 10 possibilities in life. But it’s the why things are like that that seems endless. Why does someone want to help others or why does someone want to hurt others? Those are two of those small possibilities and encompass just about all aspects of life. General I know, but that’s how I break it down. Yet the why a person chooses such a path can be a list that goes on forever.
So why do I bring this up? Because I’ve realized over the past month or so how I’ve foolishly repeated history. How so many of us left this online gaming clan known as SFI as a means to escape a horrible, dictator-like leader only to find that when we created something new, I ended up following that exact same dictator path. Fact is fact and that is what happened.
Now I’m in an interesting place. I’ve changed. Most certainly, I have changed. It’s the why I have changed that makes it interesting and it’s something I don’t feel like sharing. Not because I’m embarrassed or anything, but rather because I don’t believe many others want to hear it. Might take it the wrong way. Whatever. I dunno. I don’t care. It’s my reason and I have embraced it. I’m not the same for it and that makes me happy.
So this is just one of many apologies I have been making to people. People I have gamed with and have felt my egotistical wrath.
I now sit here thinking out a new course of action. One that may change things for all of us. For better or worse? Who knows.
