The Mind Gone Mad

Time grows short and the world she spins. You must now pay ever close attention.

So much work to be done and yet so few hours in the day. I have ideas and plans and things, but no ears for them to grace. Those around care little for what it is being offered, others simply care nothing at all. Ha! They’ll be shown. Each and every one of them. They must be. Otherwise they will end up right while it is I who ends up a fool. No! It cannot end in such a way. It must end as I will it. Anything less is unacceptable.

So much to do…

First, we must take care of the wizards and kings. That must come first. Everything else is a distant second. It must come first. No no no. Nothing else will do in it’s place. But how? Not tonight. Of course not tonight. Tomorrow. In the morning! Yes! Then! There! That is when it shall begin. Mmm. Wait…no. We’ve already begun! Days ago in fact. My end of the bargain has not been kept. Oh this will not do. This I must correct.

So much to do…

Second shall be the much larger organization. But we must first start small then work towards the bigger house. Yes. Yes, this will be the correct order. First small, second large. Yes, this is correct. We must place the right people in charge of course. No! Fool! We have the right people! We must make sure they work well is all. Yes, that is right. We must make sure they work well. Then all other things will work well. Yes. Then we must make sure others join in our efforts. That is key. A very important key. Without it…chaos. Nothing but chaos. And chaos will not do. Cannot have chaos. No no no. Must have order. Must have order. Order is good. It keeps things spinning properly. It is good. Good good good.

So much to do…

Then there needs to be a gathering. Yes! Of course! A gathering. It will be most grand. Splendid for all. There will be “What if’s” of course. Well of course. That is only natural. But one should not concern himself with such things. No no no. Instead concern yourself with what you can control.

So much to do…

Peer down deep into my eyes and see this descent. One into madness. One you simply cannot comprehend. This was but only a glimpse. A mere fraction of a mind gone mad.

I’ve finished my task of giving the basement its final look. For those of you who have been here, you have seen it change little by little over the years. For those who haven’t….well I guess this entry just ain’t for you.

We had the original look of the couch dropped in the middle of the room and the long row of TVs and video games. I hated that look and yet it was my brother’s favorite. I don’t know why he liked it so much, but it just sucked. We could only really utilize half the basement that way. Meanwhile, my computer was way in the back room which has since been dubbed the gopher hole.

Then there was the 1.2 look. Which was really nothing more than the first look along with a clean up and posters and pictures hung around to make it look nicer. This didn’t do much to satisfy me, but we stayed with it for a while.

Then the second look that came over the summer. This was meant to not only use more of the basement, but also get my computer and desk out of the gopher hole. It worked. But as the months went on, I didn’t like how I basically shoved all the entertainment stuff into one area of the basement and made a small bedroom for myself in another. After a while it just bugged me. Especially since Wii couldn’t really be played well in the some what small area we had it.

So then it came down to the third look. The whole basement is used and my bed is now back in the gopher hole. Moving it back there opened up everything. At first we kept the couch and used two chairs. Now we got a new couch, a love seat, and a matching chair, plus ottoman all down here. At first, it all looks cramped. I admitted that to myself. But the key is, you aren’t actually cramped. It’s just bulky. There is plenty of room to move around. Plus once you’re sitting, who gives a shit?

Bottom line…I like it and my brother hates it. But he hates everything I do. That’s been a fact of life for a long time now. Oh well. Screw him. He can bitch and whine about it all he likes. If only he knew that I cover his ass all the time by deleting the cookie files on his computer so our mother doesn’t know he looks at porn on a fecking weekly basis. No joke. That and many other things, the little brat owes me when you really add it all up. Ah well. He doesn’t need to know and he can go on being pissed at me. That’s the way it’s supposed to be for a big brother. To be honest….I really don’t care. I love the sucker too much.

So come on over and try this shit out! It’s comfy!

It’s roughly 12:35am and I am really fucking tired. So why take this time to write anything? Mostly because I haven’t written anything in weeks. Also because my thoughts are already pretty random, but let’s see how they go with my brain screaming sleep at me.

Work beat me up today, and yet I feel good. Like I’m really damn tired right now, but my legs feel good. As do my feet. Usually those are killing me right now but not tonight. Maybe this job is getting me in better shape. At least lower body. Hmmm.

Resolutions?
Not really resolutions. Just things I’ve started doing and it is a coincidence that they started after the new year.

I’m waking myself up earlier each day whether I have work or not. I’m doing it mostly for the days I work. Because when I work I have just slept in until about noon, get up, shower, dress, eat, go to work and when I get back I stay up for a couple hours and thats it. Thats my day. It all really revolves around work. And frankly….that sucks.

I don’t want that anymore. Especially since I’m going to be picking up more shifts now. So I can’t just wake myself up earlier on the days I work and sleep in on the rest. Because let’s say I sleep in one day and have work the next. I’ll never get enough sleep ’cause I’ll be up until 3am the night before work. So I’ve been conditioning myself to wake up earlier each day. Right now my alarm is set for 11am and I’ve gotten up at that time for the last 4 days. I’ve been getting tired earlier each night, but I’m fine the next morning. So after this weekend I’m gonna push the time to 10:30 and see how that goes. My goal is to be up at 9am everyday. I’ll definitely need an alarm clock to do it from now on otherwise I’ll easily slip right back to my original sleep habits, but it’s the only way I can get things done for myself on days that I work.

But getting shit done isn’t the sole reason behind wanting to wake earlier. I also would like to use the time in the morning to start running again. One, so I can strengthen my legs and be better at work, and two, so I can get in shape for two high peaks this summer. I said that last summer and I let it all go past. I pretty much knew that was going to happen even when I said it. This time just feels different. Like I know I’m going to do it rater than think I am. So who knows.

I’d like to start running again which means I’m gonna need sneakers for that. I may want to also ride my bike again. Because you know…that venture lasted a whole week. But the bike riding isn’t a must. It’s the running I want to really do. That stuff has faster results. Then maybe…MAYBE I’ll look into some stuff for upper body. Like some minor weight lifting. I dunno. It’s all a possibility. But one step at a time. Right now I’m looking at waking up at 10:30 as a goal. When that’s your current goal in life….yeah the bar is set pretty fucking low.

STUFF!
I dunno. Maybe? OK, fine. I wanna do stuff! With anyone. Everyone. Let’s go eat, see a movie, fuck around, and laugh. Definitely laugh. Actually that reminds me. I’ve been looking up comedy clubs in NYC because let’s face it, that’s where the only good ones are near here, and have also been looking up some of the tour dates for my more preferred stand ups. So if anyone has any suggestions or ideas, lemme know. That would all definitely be fun. A day in the city, some over priced food, maybe dirty water dogs along the way, and a comedy club. Oh and drinks. I don;t drink, but the rest of you fucking do, so go ahead. I’ll drive, so go for it.

Aaaaaaaaaand cake.
I love cake. It is good. Mmmmmmmm.