Archive for November, 2007

List of Goodies

EDIT – Assassin’s Creed is off the list. My brother went and got it (We split the price and are calling it our gift to each other. We couldn’t wait :D )

OK here is the list of stuff I would like to receive for the upcoming holidays. But before that, here is some simple advice: stick to the list. Don’t get me a poster or a T-shirt or whatever little do-dad was in a store window. I have about 30 T-shirts, don’t need anymore. I’m not 12, so no posters! And the do-dad? Just have someone throw it at your head when you buy it. That way you are prepared to know how it feels in case I do it to you.

“Wow, you’re grumpy.” Not really. I’m just helping with making a list for two reasons. One – it’s easier on people who don’t know what to get me. Two – I want this shit. So let’s all save me some money because I’m just going to end up buying what I don’t get anyway, and stick to the list.

And away we go!

Wii:
Super Mario Galaxy
Link’s Crossbow Training (bundled with the Wii Zapper)
MLB Power Pros
Donkey Kong Barrel Blast

DvD: (Always get the wide screen version)
The Bourne Ultimatum (Out December 11)
Superbad (Out December 5)

CD:
The Hives – The Black and White Album

Death of an Immortal

This is a short story I have been playing around with in my head and am now going to just go at it and see how it comes out. It is technically part of the larger story I have, but not an actual part of it as this part will never take place in it. Instead, it is an extra story that deals with the main character.

The world he once loved no longer exists. It hasn’t for quite some time. Earth, as all had expected, was swallowed up by it’s own expanding sun. Now this great warrior was left without a place to call home.

Human beings of Earth had come so far since his first days of life. Many of them still lived on other planets, mingled with other life forms, and slowly forgot their own ways of life. It was only he who knew what it meant to be human and yet he was not one. At best, he was only a shallow imitation of humanity. Once a man of significance who saved that world more times than even he could remember, and yet he could not stop the forces of nature from taking the last thing he loved.

Old habits die hard, but eventually they do die. He maintained many of the planets languages, until he could find no one else to speak them with. He continued keeping track of the calender until he could no longer remember even what year it should be. He would try to sing songs, play games, and celebrate in the many fashions that people of Earth would until he simply forgot each one. He was no longer with friends. Even his own fellow immortal, had met death. It had been many many years since his own name was spoken. He sat there, on a moon, looking out into space, and saw the image of a young woman with golden blond hair. He knew her face, but could recall her name.

It had been countless millenniums since Kayle Rain had even seen the Earth. Now his mind was struggling to hold onto the image of the world he fought to protect. He could still see the faces of those he called friends, of those he once loved. But they were distorted, fuzzy. A woman with red hair. A little girl laughing. A dark skinned man with a bright smile. And a family of three sitting in something once called an apartment. No one knew what an apartment was anymore. The word itself didn’t even exist except for within Kayle’s own head.

But who was this golden haired woman? The face was clear to him, but the name was nothing more than a blank. Emily? Tammy? Sonya? No. Those were others, but not this one. He could see the face of his oldest friend. His name was Caul. He was an immortal like Kayle, and he died protecting a small village on another world. That happened long before the Earth was destroyed. His mind, both old and broken, could not keep things steady and clear as it once could. But even so, the golden haired woman would not leave his thoughts.

“Was she the red haired woman too by any chance,” he asked himself. But no. She wasn’t. She couldn’t have been. The red haired woman was named Christine and was a lover. The golden haired woman was only a friend. Of that he was sure. She had to be someone else. A name he could not remember, but a face of such significance. As he desperately tried to remember, other thoughts took over. He could see this golden haired woman’s daughter. She was all grown up and looked just like her mother. He could see that girl’s father as well. “He looks fimiliar too,” Kayle thought. “Didn’t he die saving a village?”

Then he saw the golden haired woman’s mother. She was a strong woman who loved her daughter. Her name Lila. She once asked Kayle to take care of her daughter on the day of her death.

“That was it!” he thought. “I helped raise her. I saw her grow up from the day she was born. I was a brother to her. I taught her many things. She became the only one I could trust. My one true friend.” All of this was true, but he could still not remember her name. He remembered teaching her many things, fighting at her side, and sitting at her deathbed, but the name simply was not there.

Kayle Rain was confused. A once great warrior, now a beaten man. Beaten by time and dread. He sat on that moon and very well could have stayed there till the end of time had he not heard the cries of a voice out of normal ear shot.

All at once the confusion had disappeared. The images in his mind faded away. The need to know what he was trying to remember was no longer of importance. Instinct took over. A cry for help had become a language to him. He knew distress from a light year away. With that, he was off.

A man of an alien race and his family were being terrorized by several others of another alien race. Earth may have long since been destroyed, but the concept of bullies and murder was hardly an Earth creation. It lived on across the universe. Kayle did not know the reason for the quarrel and he did not care. He knew that innocent blood was going to be shed. That he could not allow. He seemed to appear out of thin air and placed himself between this poor family and their would be attackers. He spoke in their alien language and stated only a single word: “Leave.”

Though shocked at his sudden appearance, they did not hesitate to laugh at his order. There were dozens of them and only one of him.

“Leave,” he spoke again. Understanding now that he was serious, they each made attack on this old aged, but still young in body, warrior. And a warrior he was. With each of their punches, stabs, and kicks, he would evade and counter with a swift blow of his own. Their moves were strong, but clumsy. His were swift and sure. He fought off many, but more still came. Eventually, they started to attack as one. Even though he was a master of combat, there were simply too many of them, and the law of averages catches up with everyone. One of them got lucky and managed to plunge a blade deep into Kayle Rain’s shoulder blade. Kayle turned swiftly to deal with his attacker, and as he did, another grabbed hold of the hilt and forced the blade further in and then dragged it down. It sliced him deep and open.

With what little strength and will he had left, Kayle turned and unleashed a force of power he had not used in a long time. A power granted to him by a single medallion that he found so long ago. He thought he had forgotten how to control it, and perhaps he did, but this time it came to his aid once more. His attackers all fell. Each of them dead. It was the first time Kayle had took a life since he vowed not to to a woman in a land called England. All this and more flashed before his eyes.

Kayle fell to the ground. His face down in the dirt of this foreign moon. The family he had saved came running to pick him up. But he could see none of this. Instead, several billion years of life flashed before his eyes. He could see everything the day he first experienced it. He could hear everything and smell it all too. It was as though he was there again. Living it all over again moment by moment. It felt as though he lived his life over a second time even though it all passed in less than a second.

As the family sat him up, they cried and thanked him. Kayle looked at each of them, but said nothing. They asked what they could do to help even though they knew nothing of repairing such a wound. They asked over and over again what they could do. Kayle silenced them with a gesture. With another, he had them remove the blade from his back. As they did this, Kayle’s body tried to heal itself as it had done countless times before. But he knew this time would be different. He could feel the life flowing out of him like the blood from his back.

Kayle Rain looked at this family, this last group of people he would ever save. He looked at them for the longest time and then he smiled. With that smile he said, “Her name was Stephanie.”

He closed his eyes, the smile remained, the family wept, and Kayle Rain died.

As I said, I had this rolling around my head for a while, but with little detail. A lot of it was made up just now. Really though, it is something I wanted to get down. I know how my main story is going to end, and it is without the death off Kayle Rain. Instead, he is forced to live on and seemingly never die. So i wanted to come up with a “what if” were I to actually kill him off. With that I decided to place him so far into the future that he had too much information in his own mind to be able to grasp it all effectively. Each name and description I gave are all actual characters from the main story I have. Each one is significant in its own way. The significance of “Stephanie” is that she is the one character my main story always goes back to. That story is actually more about her than it is about him. She is the greatest friend of his very long life even though he lives for less than 40 years. A blip in his life really, but a blip that strikes him as significant. Something I am sure that many people can relate to.

That was boring…

Thanksgiving was pretty uneventful. I feel like every holiday is getting more and more bland for me.

I think it’s time I stop doing the holiday thing with family every year and do my own thing. Whether that be with friends or just go out on my own. I don’t care. Sitting at home, around the table, same old thing every year. I’m not really into it anymore. I’m going through the motions. I like seeing the different family members, but I’m never into the conversations that take place, so really I see them and then I’m done. For me, it all ends at around 3:30. If it’s a holiday, I’d like to go do something…fun. Sitting inside is for old people.

I don’t even really care about the meal. Hell, the holiday itself doesn’t make sense. Does anyone remember that things really didn’t end in thanks between the pilgrims and natives? Or how about the fact that no one in my family is a decedent of either one? So we do it out of tradition? Yeah, I’m soooo not a fan of that. I like mixing it up. I might need to do that come next year. Go out with whoever wants to join me, get a good meal wherever, and spend the evening goofing around having a good time. Whatever gets me out of the house and with a few friends.

Mmmmm. I like that idea.

And a Smile Comes to My Face

As I’ve said, I don’t put any serious, personal, emotions into what goes on with the Yankees or any sports team for that matter. But that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy certain aspects.

That being said, I could only smile when I saw the article Tuesday that said Alex Rodriguez had managed to reopen talks with the Yankees. Tonight, the deal is all but finalized. A 10 year, $275 million dollar contract is what it seems to be. 10 years from now will be 2017. He will be 42 years old. That would be the rest of his career. He’s my favorite player and he will remain with my favorite team for the rest of his career. And a smile comes to my face. :)

But let’s break this down first. Because I know that a lot of fans don’t like A-Rod, the media is already on him about it, saying he crawled back to the Yankees and all that. Everyone has their own opinion of the matter. Only Alex really knows what went on. But here is how I look at it and what I believe.

The guy’s agent is Scott Boras. I don’t like Boras. He is a tough negotiator, gets his clients all kinds of money, but he is bad for baseball. He makes teams fight over free agents, they get signed for too much money, and then the team suffers for having an overpriced player they need and now can’t spend their money elsewhere.

Alex has been Boras’ client since he was 16 or 17 years old. That’s half his life really. His entire adult life. He listens to this guy. I know I would. The guy is his agent for a reason. It’s my belief that Boras told him to opt out. Gave him one of those “trust me” talks. So he did it. But Alex was saying all season long that he wanted to stay in New York. One can argue that he was saying that just to say the right thing. But you can dodge those questions about whether or not you are going to leave without having to say you are going to stay. But he didn’t do that. He said he wanted to stay. Simple as that.

But his agent advises him to opt out of the final three years of his contract. And he did it. Then he starts to wonder if this is a good idea then has regrets. Why do I think that? Because the guy didn’t even speak with another team. He never had a single meeting. He didn’t even have a quick lunch get together. Instead, he went through a friend (unknown to the public) and asked that person to get in touch the Steinbrenner to let them know that he wanted to come back to the Yankees.

Hank Steinbrenner (the guy I hope becomes completely in charge of the team one day) said that he didn’t want A-Rod on the team if A-Rod didn’t really want to be a Yankee. So A-Rod lets the guy know that he wants to be a Yankee. And he proved it to him. He took a pay cut. Alex could have easily gotten $300 million from the team. Instead he is getting $275. And if you don’t know anything about baseball and are thinking “Well what is the difference?” It’s a pretty big difference. Yes, he is still a multi millionaire. Yes, it is a shit load of money. But that is $25 million less. It’s not about the money. It’s about the pride. To prove he wanted to stay with the team, he is willing to get paid about $10 million less for the first three years of his new contract. Had he not opted out, that money would have been given to him from the Texas Rangers. Instead, he doesn’t get that money at all and the Yankees still pay him the same amount. Is that not proof enough? Fine.

When he got in touch with the team, the asked to meet with Alex and not have his agent present. Legally, they cannot make that demand. And they didn’t. Baseball has rules about that. A player can be represented by anyone they choose and a team cannot prevent such a thing. So they didn’t make that demand. That made it as a suggestion. Alex could have easily said “Scott comes with me.” Instead? He showed up without Boras and talked to the Steinbrenner brothers himself. He chose to not take the super agent with him. He knew that guy screwed him over already, he wasn’t about to let it happen again. Still not proof enough? Fine!

Let’s rewind a few years. To when the Yankees got him the first time around.

The guy was THE shortstop in baseball. He had won a MVP. He had two gold glove awards at the position. He was one home run shy of breaking the shortstop home run record (currently held by Cal Ripken Jr.). So here is the chance to go play for the New York Yankees. But they clearly already have a shortstop. Duh. He can only come play if he is willing to move over to third base. He’s a better shortstop than Derek Jeter is. But Alex has to switch positions because Jeter is the face and captain of the fucking team. You don’t have him move. So what does Alex do? He agrees without hesitation! He takes the position move. He is willing to make that compromise right off the fucking bat all in order to come to the team. Still not enough? Fuck you!

He works his ass off every day. He goes out of his way to make rookies feel comfortable. He donates to charities all the time. Don’t tell me he’s a regular season player and a playoff choker! He’s playoff batting average is .279. That’s not amazing, but it certainly isn’t bad. The whole team has sucked in the playoffs over the past three years, not just him. Baseball is the ultimate team sport, yet players get scapegoated all the time. He’s also more than stats. He’s a marquee player, he’s a good influence on younger players (Melky Cabrera works out with the guy all the time and it’s shown in his steady increase as a great, young ballplayer), his presence in the lineup makes the other hitters around him better. Bobby Abreu barely made it to 100 RBIs this season. If A-Rod isn’t hitting behind him most of the season, Abreu doesn’t reach that milestone. He also doesn’t bounce back for the second half like he did.

So anyone who doesn’t like the deal, didn’t want A-Rod back, wished this never happened. Fine. You have your opinion. That’s what makes life great. We each can think for ourselves. Me? This is how I feel on the subject. And once again…brings a smile to my face.

Another Stolen Quiz Idea :D

1. Take your answer to each question and type it into Google Image Search
2. Post one of the images from the first page of results

1. The age you will be on your next birthday

Hurray for Kandinsky!

2. A place to which you’d like to travel

Mmmmm. The outback.

3. Your favorite place

The mere fact that there is a picture of this and it came up on the first Google image search is just proof that the gods smile on me.

4. Your favorite object (Man, I could so make this a dirty picture…)


JOY!

5. Your favorite food

Excuse me while I drool…….

6. Your favorite animal

Run! Run! Run, Spot, Run!

7. Your favorite color

AHAHAHAHAHA!

8. The town in which you were born

Man, the options for “Pascack Hills” blow

9. The town in which you live

I hate that fucking barn! I want to burn that useless piece of shit down! It’s kept there only because its old! It serves no other purpose! It must die! Who is with me?!

10. First name of a past love

Works for me.

11. Name of a past pet

They were gold fish and my sister named them…I’m bored just talking about it.

12. Best friend’s nickname

Sweet.

13. Your nickname/screen name

Wow. Go Ahead. Put Kayle Rain into Google image search. Don’t put it in quotes. That’s what you’ll get in the first page. And what’s better? It’s from DD’s blog.

14. Your first name

I think now would be a good time to take our shirts off.

15. Your middle name

Good. I was hoping for a King Arthur image. Fuck that weird cartoon, animal thing.

16. Your last name

You know, there was a picture of a cute baby on the page, but then I saw this. This won. I don’t know what the fuck it is. But it’s awesome!

17. a bad habit of yours

Maybe I am……

18. your first job (I’ll go with paying job on this one)

I must have stolen $500 in candy in the year I worked there.

19. Your grandmother’s name

20. Your major in college (Yeah apparently this is the next question. Fuck whatever your grandfather’s name is. Psshhh!)

I dare you to find Waldo!

Aaaaaaaaand done. Well that took up time. :D

For the Fuck of It

Don’t have a whole lot to say, but I want to write. So…..what to write. Let’s just go with whatever comes to mind then.

Getting an A in my class thus far. I didn’t even really study for the last test. I wrote out the answers to the review sheet while at work, glanced over it when I got in, when in the next day and breezed through the sucker in about 10 minutes. Maybe less. Got an 88% on it. Put that together with the 90% on the first test and the 10 points for passing the first paper so far, I’m doing quite well for a class that is at 8am. God I hate the early morning. Whose idea was that shit anyway? That dude needs to be punched. Twice.

Getting antsy over the Super Smash Bros. Brawl game. I’ve been waiting on this sucker for about a year now. It would have been a month away right now then they pushed the release date back. So now it’s not due until Feb. 10. That’s three fucking months away. I go from one to three just like that. Damnit. I’ve been following the progress of this game for a while now and it’s becoming an insanely epic game simply from what little I have seen. I’m probably not following my own rule of never over hype a game for yourself. But oh well. Nintendo never lets me down on it’s own titles. I mean, Twilight Princess certainly didn’t disappoint. I don’t see any reason for them to screw this one up.

Christmas already? No…wait….it’s November. I guess I understand why it happens. In stores anyway. It’s for money. You start the advertising now for the early shoppers. OK. That makes sense. But why are there lights up already? Put those away! I mean, if you want them out to get them out of the way, fine, but don’t turn them on! They should be off! We haven’t even eaten turkey yet! You stupid, dumb, fuckers!

Peanut butter! Where did that come from, you ask? Because I literally just turned to my brother and said “Say something!” and that was his response. Works for me.

Blast from the not so past! I’m gonna start playing Oblivion again. Why? A better question would be why did I stop in the first place. I think because I got into Lord of the Rings Online a lot and that fed my need to play an RPG. But the other day Owyn brought an article to my attention that said there is a rumor of an Elder Scrolls MMO game in the works. Now in that article it also said that the game’s publisher said that no such thing is happening, I don’t care. Just the idea makes me smile. Plus, they have to say that as the publisher. If there is such a thing in the works, you don’t want the competition to know about it. That’s just good sense. So now I’m brushing it off and going to pick up my file where I left off. Should be fun :D

And….what else? Oh!

Supernatural is getting good. Kripke was dead on when he compared the show to a game of chess. The first two seasons were the time spent setting everything up. Now comes the time when you take and lose piece after piece and it gets fun. Because that is what each episode has been: fun. Fun, funny, clever, awesome deaths, and intense moments. The weakest episode thus far, in my opinion, was Bedtime Stories – the fairy tales one. Nothing much happened. Was one of those “and it solved itself” episodes. Oh well. But everything else has been great for me. I’m not looking for much anyway. The story is solid, they don’t contradict themselves, and Kripke definitely knows what he wants from this – or so I am believing to this point. But in the end, regardless of what happens, I’m just gonna do what I always do and sit back and watch. Fun.

Something to finish this off with….uhhhhhh……

DD has nubby arms!

A Year of Honor

Let’s start this with a hypothetical situation:

You are the supervisor of whatever business. Let’s say an office. You have two employees. One is a higher up employee – let’s call him Bill. The other is a regular 9-5 guy – let’s call him Ted. (Yes, I’m going with Bill and Ted). Bill doesn’t like Ted for who cares what reason. Because Bill is just that kind of person. One day Ted makes a small error at work. Bill is right there to see it and goes nuts. But instead of just yelling at him, Bill decides to cut really deep into Ted. You see, Ted is Jewish. So Bill decides to use that as a means of creating insults. Clearly, word of this public display gets back to you. What do you do?

Now, I hope you are a smart, sound minded person, and flat out fire Bill. Or at the very least, discipline him in a very harsh manner.

Why do I pose this hypothetical? Because it was a reality for me and four other guys.

Over in Titans of Honor, we have a six person council. Each of us leads a game – some of us lead in the same game together. We are all equals, we work and make decisions together, majority rules. However, some of us pull over weight more than others. We have a Council Member who simply has not pulled his weight at all. His name is Locutus (naming himself after a Star Trek character). There have been several issues between him and the rest of the Council for months now. The rest of us have felt that he has set a poor example for the members of his game division, allowed them to get away with breaking the rules, and simply has not shown the drive or care one needs in order to properly be a leader in something like this. So why has he been allowed to stay? Because he’s been around for a while, and few people have the foresight that I do and know when to just dump a loser. That’s right. A loser.

Before I go on, I want to vent on my feelings of this guy, but as always, remain objective.

He’s a smart guy. That is a dead on fact and can’t be argued. He’s also a very approachable guy. He handles all the young members extremely well. But here is the problem: he is a lazy little feck. He’s smart, but doesn’t apply himself. He handles the young members well because he lets them get away with so much and becomes their buddy so when it comes time to enforcing the rules he either can’t bring himself to do it or they don’t take him seriously. I’ve seen that and more in his personality for a few years. He was put on the Council and given a game to lead because we wanted that game in the clan when we started. He was the leader in SFI when we left, so it made sense. I didn’t disagree with it then, but in hindsight maybe I should have. Though I doubt anyone would have agreed with me.

A few months ago, the rest of the Council – five guys, myself included – were becoming upset with his very laid back approach to leading. It wasn’t just that he let members get away with things, but that he wasn’t involved in Council responsibilities as well. Votes were called, and he wouldn’t cast his. Discussions were underway, but he offered nothing. We all broke away from SFI because we all wanted equality. Locutus was a part of that. In fact, it was him who put the idea into my head in the first place. Yes, I was the guy who said “We all should leave,” but it wouldn’t have happened if Locutus didn’t state how displeased he was.

So the five of us got together, talked it over, and sent him a giant message with each of us telling him he needed to step it up and give a shit. It was like an intervention only in written form. It certainly struck a nerve with him as he did change. He got more involved in the Council. Sort of…

See other guys thought he turned it around. I didn’t agree. He was making posts in discussions, but he wasn’t offering anything. His posts would be someone nodding along in a conversation instead of offering their own insight. Other guys failed to see this. The problems of his members also seemed to die down. The other Council members attributed this to Locutus’ change. I looked at it as though they just had nothing to bitch about at the moment. Even though I felt like this, I said little. We sent our message as a means of giving him a second chance. I wanted to legitimately give him that. But I also wanted to be on guard. Over the next couple months, a few problems popped up here and there within his game division. Each tim, he took care of them. So I was slightly starting to turn around. Then……

Let’s look at what happened a little more than a week ago.

Locutus is in a {toh} server with a few members and two former members. These two former members had left on less than favorable term. They left for another clan simply because they weren’t happy. But it was a messy way in which they left from what I understand. I don’t know all the details. What I do know is that Locutus was not happy with them.

So here he is in the game server with them. His emotions are boiling over. Oh and remember my hypothetical situation? One of these former members is Jewish. One of the {toh} members decides to go a little nuts and makes several antisemitic remarks. A couple other members make similar remarks. Now here is Locutus. He is the leader. The face of the division. He has already received a written warning to do better. He responded to that warning with a “Yes I will.” What does he do? He decides to get in on the action.

It is a public server with members, former members, and outsiders from other clans about. And this is how he decides to represent himself as well as the clan. Word gets back about this. To make this already long story short, the Council convenes, and in 5 days we decided to kick and ban him from the clan. We also closed his game division since it was filled with mostly teenage boys who thought it was cool to say “fucking noob” every 15 minutes.

Why do I call attention to all this? Mostly because I don’t like to ignore the unpleasant moments in life. This was and is a black mark on our clan’s short history. I’ll be the first to admit that. But it was also a necessary mark. This was a situation I have never faced in my 4 years of being in online gaming clans. And we came out of it. It was a little messy, sure, but dealt with it and feel we are better for it. Because it got rid of the guy I simply did not think was fit as a leader. I know others loved the dude and think he was the best thing the clan ever had, but those are the people who were able to get away with what they wanted. They’re the kids who are now gone. We’re down to three games and have removed every game we started up with. Tomorrow is our one year anniversary. Things are very different now then they were when we started. Had you told me it would have all gone down like this, I wouldn’t have believed you. My thoughts?

I’m loving every second of it. It’s drama. It’s fan boys. It’s video games. It’s my friends. It’s a fecking blast. Ask me in a year if I feel the same. :D