The Mind Gone Mad

Been awhile? Yes. You’d think that I been crawling the walls at this point having not written anything. Which is normally true, but I’ve had other things going on to suppress my desire to rant. Specifically, my web forums have supplied that. I average 3 posts on day on there. And that’s not a guess. The forums give you what your average is. Mine is a dead 3 per day. Lately, however, over these past couple weeks I’d say that I’ve been averaging 7 posts a day. On top of that I’ve been sending private messages to people almost every day. And those have been containing a lot of rants in them. So they’ve done the trick.

But why the title this time? Well I’m not talking about those web forums for no reason. As I mentioned previously, there was ass kicking to be had for the slackers and that is exactly what we have been doing. We created this gaming clan almost a year ago. We did it because we wanted something new. Something better. We were tired of the one sided dictatorship we felt we were under. We wanted to see more action and better results. So we broke off and formed Titans of Honor. For me, it’s been a dream. We have fun, play games, and lead with equality. Unfortunately, to do so, everyone needs to put in equal amounts of work. We haven’t gotten that out of everyone. Those are the people whose asses needed to be kicked. But of course there is a lot of politics and red tape. We can’t just kick out the guys who don’t do anything.

We talk with them, discuss why they haven’t been doing what they should, give second chances, work to help. We want everyone to succeed. But recently, I and others have been fed up with several of the leaders we have around. Some of them just have to go. And that is what he have been working towards. We know who gives and shit and who doesn’t. We have some people who are too laid back and too content to just be figure heads. That is not what we are about.

So as of right now, it’s still hard work and sweat….sort of. We’re close. Very close to getting things exactly how we envisioned them years ago. When that day does come, I’ll finally be able to sit back, take a deep breath, and….get ready for the next project. Because it’s never over. We got a lot of kids in the clan. They whine, they bitch, they get on everyone’s nerves. And we take care of the next headache. And you know what? I love it. Probably why I’m nuts.

Which reminds me. I need to make an entry about that. My madness, I mean. I haven’t really gone into that. But I’m concerned it might disturb people. So I’ll leave it to you. Think I should open that door and put myself out there like that? Comment and let me know.

My brother and I finished watching the first season of Supernatural tonight. It took us about three or four weeks. It is clear he likes the show. I know this because when the last episode finished he said something to the affect of “You’re finding the second season episodes now!” AHAHAHA!

Now that he is clearly one of us, it is time for me to mention some of my favorite moments of Joe watching Supernatural:

1. The ending of “Home” when we see John for the first time and he states he can’t approach his boys yet my brother says nothing but his eyes get about as wide as a door frame and he continuously thrusts his open hand at the TV as though to say “DUDE!”
2. It was around the third or fourth episode when he said “I want to drive that car.” I believe anyone who has watched his show has had that exact same thought more than once.
3. During “Scarecrow” when Sam happens along Meg. Joe yells at the TV “Dude, don’t talk to her!” as though to warn the hitchhiking fool.
4. Later in that same episode when we see Meg make her “phone call” Joe’s reaction to that see went something like “Oh….OH! Oh….she’s evil.” Thank you Captain obvious.
5. When Dean has to out run the truck in “Route 666″ makes Joe happy because seeing the Impala go peddle to the medal was something he had been waiting for.
6. When it is revealed that Max in “Nightmare” had the exact same thing happen to his mother as it did to Sam made Joe’s eye go wide again as he looked at me, then the TV, then me again, then the TV again, then me again, then the TV again….etc etc.
7. As the painting in “Provenance” reforms while the boys are burning it outside. “Wait that can’t be it, it’s only been like 20 minutes….oh shit!”
8. While Dean is literally getting his heart ripped out at the end of “Devil’s Trap” Joe actually grabs hold of my sleeve and starts pulling because he (like all of us) really saw no way out of this for the boys. Hurray for John’s will power.
9. At no point in particular Joe realizes that the Impala really is another cast member and should be loved by all.
10. At no point in particular Joe says “I love Dean.” We all do, Joe.

Welcome to the darkside!

OK let us recap the past week and look at the next week in as short a post as possible….

Went to Toronto. Saw a couple of games. Don’t take no shit from no one, Alex! Awesome stuff. The 3am arrival back home. Not so awesome. The driving in the down pour rain for most of it. Less awesome. Oh. Worth the trip. Just missed meeting the mad Canadian too. Blah.

Going to Speculator in the morning. Will be back by Thursday (you fecks better call me this time) then get to kick some ass in {toh} and there is a lot of ass to kick. Too many people slacking off and I’m not gonna let them get away with it. Expect pain!

Done!

Went and saw the Bourne Ultimatum and it was great. Brought the whole story full circle. But I can’t help feeling sorry for Jason Bourne’s character. Is he really free of it all? I mean in his own mind at least. Only reason I ask such a question of a fictional character is because there was a scene in the movie that reminds me of my own character when he said he could never really forgive himself. I’ve had a scene like that in mind for a few years now.

But I won’t ruin what happens. A lot of suspense, and his total kill count in all three movies is what? Three? Four? People want to call this an action movie, but I look at it as a spy movie with a lot of action sequences. Swarchenegger did action movies. How many kills did he have…in one movie….after 5 minutes. More than Jason Bourne did in all three of these, I’ll tell you that much. So yeah, I disagree that this is an action movie. It’s too thought out and not enough random explosions to be an action movie. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.

But it was probably after the movie that I had the most fun. We leave the theater, get to the doors of the mall and it is not only pouring rain outside, but lightning and thunder sent down from Zeus himself. And it was awesome! My friends were a little hesitant to step outside, but I just went right through the doors in all my arrogance.  Two of ‘em ran to the car while I took my sweet little time. Honestly, I kept laughing to myself and muttering “If you’re going to hit me then hit me.” Because damn….that would be a cool way to go. I’m not planning my death over here, but if I could choose, I’d totally want it to be a bolt of lightning. Car crashes are messy, disease is too slow, peacefully in your sleep might be nice for you, but imagine the dude who tried to wake you up….ugh. No. I want a bolt of pure energy to shoot through my body and lighting me up like a Christmas tree while the crackling of thunder is the last thing I ever hear. Oh that’s so poetic.

If I lived out west more, I’d probably be one of those storm chasers by now. The whole idea of tempting fate by challenging the raw power of the Earth itself just gets me going more than anything else. That’s right, I’m out of my fucking mind. What you think the name of this blog is just for kicks? Deal with it!

Don’t worry, I’m still alive. Yes, you know me! I’m not a stranger!

I’ve been wanting to write something but haven’t had much to say due to work. Yes, my three days in Speculator were awesome (I need to take and upload some photos of that place so people can get an idea of how awesome). I probably could talk about that, but it was just me relaxing. Not exactly entry worthy. Work has been interesting, but does anyone really want to hear about how I have to transfer spinal fluid?

So I’ve been blanking a bit. Of course earlier tonight I received a little inspiration with the return of the one and only Peril Lost. First time in a lone time we got more than an hour in on Radio Peril. Dude has been gone since Februar, and I don’t even know for sure when the feck we were all actually on like we were tonight. I can probably talk about that and about how there was some extreme hilarity going on. But not right now. I’m gonna go watch a movie. Maybe I’ll get to it tomorrow.